The Time Off

There are times when Brian goes out and does his own thing. Goes out with friends, whatever.When he does, and it is just Jack and I at night, those are my snuggle times with Jack, because we just watch a movie and lay on the couch.Relax.

Today since Jack hasn't had a nap, he fell asleep really early. As in 6 pm - this kid usually sleeps around 8:30. With Brian gone, I was hoping to have my time with Jack, watch Bambi, and lay in bed and read books.
With Jack sleeping and Brian gone, I have never been so bored in my life. I am soooo used to being the mom that runs around, has dinner, washes dishes and has maybe 40 minutes with her son before he goes to sleep. Sometimes I think, if I could have a night to myself, I would love it and just relax and sit and do nothing.

Now I have such night to myself. And all I want is to wake up my son so I can see his little smile. Yes, I still hate that I have to work. I hate that everyone is doing all this great stuff with my kid and not me. Brian takes him to museums, my parents bought him Bambi. I wanted to buy him Bambi. I wanted to be the person that would give him that great surprise. What do I get him? A tired look. And the working mom phrase of "I've had a hard day, can you please eat your dinner?"

The moral of the story is - Be careful what you wish for, you just may get it. " I asked for a night to myself and here I am. I am going to make the best out of it. make some hot chocolate. listen to Radiohead,catch up on this blog.
I will try to relax on this cold March day. I say cold because this apartment has no heat, and the landlord scrimps us of heat. I can go and complain to him, but I've had a hard day. Can he just turn the heat up just a bit?