The Countdown To Change

Brian told me earlier this week that we are very close to the end of the school year for Jack.
A preschool graduation is upon us come May.I know it is not such a big deal, but when I think that my kid will now be going to school for the next 12 years, that is a big deal.

This is tough stuff. We always had this kid that would have the easy life of watching TV, eating cheese and crackers as a snack, and then throwing in some train layouts. He will still have the easy life of a kindergartener, but then 1st grade rolls around, 2nd etc. Then we will have an 8th grader, getting ready for high school. Hopefully by then he will have at least eaten a carrot or some pea pods.

My little guy is growing up. He loves the bedtime stories still and he is becoming this great big brother where he will just look at Charlie and say " Come here you!" and give Charlie a massive big hug that brothers are always known to give.

I hope that as time rolls on, life as a working parent gets a bit easier. I wish I can be in a place where I don't have to wake up so early to travel an hour and a half to get to work, and travel another hour and a half to get home. I get home late sometimes, I see my guys only for an hour or two. Where has the time gone? At work, worrying about what the next great big gig is. The next great big gig is here, with Jack growing up.
I need to be present more and I can't always worry about cleaning up as soon as I get home or rushing him to brush his teeth at night. I guess I am giving myself a promise right here and now, to be in the moment and not wonder what is going to happen tomorrow, or even in 15 minutes from now. Because then Jack will be an 8th grader, going out with friends and the bedtime stories will be a memory.